good intentions don't mean anything

Tuesday, January 29, 2008 @ 7:27 AM

complacency.

never gets you anywhere. just because you could do it last year doesn't mean you can do it as well this year. stupid chemistry.

going to fail chem/phy if i dont start STUDYING

Sunday, January 27, 2008 @ 7:44 AM

oh hello.
week was good, but cannot remember anything much about it. i can only remember that i finally got my (SUPER CUTE) erasers, and got chased up and down and everywhere trying to stop getting burnt by melo's stoopid chicken, and trying to stop my winniepooh from getting stolen but er, didn't suceed. (hahahaha)
took real cool pictures in class and on the stairwells, and miss rockey came by and started laughing at us (or smth)

:)

come on everybody, grin and bear it.

this crazy mad weekend of mine.
i feel so terribly unmotivated and really am freaking out really badly because i have no new cny clothes :(

things are esp bad during studying because my ipod's still locked up in the dont-know-where and goodness knows when i'll get it back(i kind of shattered a fraction of the dining room chandelier by accident, thankfully the dad's as unobservant as anyone can get) haha, but the odds are still. not looking too good!

still. weekend was good. rush rushing to eat chinese food, heh. rush rushing to buy moremoremore clothes. except got one only. &camp echo. the camp people. camp pictures. :D

all american rejects! :D i miss them.

I got your little brown shirt in my bottom drawer baby

And your little white socks in the top drawer

You were always leaving your shit around

And gone without a sound

Yeah I'm the first to fall and the last to know

Where'd you go?

by the way, the girl who barked at us that day? she's in my cca. ho ho ho, shannen and phina are going to have such fun with their sec ones haha :D

Monday, January 21, 2008 @ 7:46 AM

i know

I would do it all over again

At the end of the day

When I'm all alone

I get a feeling that I can't explain

If I knew then what I know now

Wouldn't change a thing if I could somehow

I would do it all over

Over and over again

I hope and I pray

We can do it all over again

this, is the song i'm listening to right now, for no apparent reason i stumbled across it and it kind of just strikes a chord within you? i don't know, but anyhow, it's good.

makes me feel like, even though life hasn't been ALL real cool and all of that, i really think that. despite it all, really wouldn't have given anything of it up. yeah. even when i was at my down-est. because i kind of think that, the good things outweigh the bad

keep getting these strange, strange happy/sad/angry mood things, i don't know if it's just me or is it something that happens when you're stuck at my age. i remember i read my sec4 counselor's blog in sec 1, she said that her not crying for that day was a record.

she's abit er, too emotional, haha but yknow, maybe there's hope for me afterall aye, i don't cry everyday

i'm not supposed to care. i don't, i really really don't. can get by really happily without you, all that.

hurhur now, who am i trying to kid

how can you say i E> you to a person who doesn't even know your name, has never laid eyes on you, or anything? love is blind, literally.

or you might not mean it at all,

Tuesday, January 15, 2008 @ 7:21 AM

two posts in two days. in a row. wow

i wanted to run around in the rain today, really really did, but i was too busy tying diagonal lashings. yeah, but today's trng wasn't bad at all, it was so funny because when we finally erected our lousy structure that whole thing just broke, hahaha yes, don't even know why it was so amusing but it was

anyhow. was hoping the rain would make me feel more, alive somehow. yeah
just been getting wearier everyday, feel like the capacity in my head's just about running out

what's your fantasy?

Monday, January 14, 2008 @ 7:34 AM

i taught jason how to write letters. not that i'm a pro or anything, just got into this funny topic of writing letters for no apparent reason. anyway, it was one good thing i did today, out of the many stupid klutzy that i did, ha ha ha.

so i think i'm gonna start with HI HO Diggidy!
:D
i made a new friend today too (:
she's called deborah, and she's real nice, haha

sometimes i don't believe in posting personal things on your blog, because, like you have to get all cryptic and stuff when you really really don't feel like doing that. and also the fact that everyone will think you're emo and everything. you think?

but anyway, i guess sometimes you think you're pretty good friends with someone, and in the end it's nothing at all. becuase they don't seem to make an effort anymore, and then, neither do you.

it's this thing, it's called pride.

just a thought. anyhow.

do you know where your heart is.

Saturday, January 12, 2008 @ 8:15 AM

hello, all.

been a long long long long long day, i swear it's like time crawls by really slowly when you're stuck at home with your little sister and you're thinking about what's going on in yf now.

haha i just heard this stupid HILARIOUS story like the funniest thing i've ever heard in a long long time, some little sec one from SA getting on the bus from the back door, he was taking bus for the first time. who gets onto buses from the back door, it's like, HAHA BRAINLESS and his indian friend who's been taking buses for years just followed him by the backdoor, right into the face of a stunned old guy.

wish i were there to see it manzxz.

that day, me and phina were walking somewhere in school, and this sec one person came up to us and barked in our faces. like a dog. it was like, WHAT?

strange people, haha, but it's so darn funny

If I knew then what I know now

Wouldn't change a thing if I could somehow

I would do it all over

Over and over again

Thursday, January 10, 2008 @ 6:26 AM

FRIDAY TOMORROW :D

it'll have been one whole week since last friday, when we played cards and talked and slept on makeshift beds consisting of three desks pulled together. couldn't sleep at all, but it was, good. quite funny when campfire started and suddenly they were like, THE GRASS IS ON FIRE! and we all started getting out buckets of water and all.

been campcrafting too much, my week-old shoes are totally SMOTHERED in mud and i'm starting to get into the, GO CAMPCRAFT COMM! WE CAN TIE ROUND LASHINGS UNDER TWO MINUTES! :D thing, which doesn't go with my slacker's-club-attitude at all, ah well.

goodbye people, time to hit the books. got to get used to this constantly-studying-thing soon :/

Sunday, January 6, 2008 @ 6:39 AM

i feel like asdfghjkl;

but anyway looking at pictures made me feel slightly happier (:

there was this picture, we looked so retarded because it was a failed jump shot and we ended up looking like snow angels or smth.

to build me up and tear me down

Wednesday, January 2, 2008 @ 7:12 AM

happy 2008, y'all.

first day of school, was actually really good i guess, though i was totally dreading it so much the night before, i didn't sleep till 2am.

skipped a little bit of cca, to sit in class blasting the speakers and talk about, yeah. i seem to be comforting people alot these days (or, trying to?) don't know if i'm helping or making things worse, hmm. but yes, melanielim you know i've got your back (:

today was just happy-saddish, i just KNOW i'm becoming more and more boring each day. THREE TESTS NEXT WEEK, hahaha what the crap right

cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day
in Your presence all our fears are washed away (:

He'll be there to catch you when you fall, always.
say a little prayer to Jesus you'll be fine.

i like that last line. someone said that to me before, except i can't remember who, ahwell (: