Saturday, May 19, 2007 @ 7:33 AM
hello
alright i haven't posted in ages. as usual
anyway life's been pretty okay. today i had a lesson as well as prayer and praise. both went fine (: heh. prayer and praise wasn't bad.
though i seem to have lost focus of important things recently and i think about silly stupid things that don't mean anything. i don't even know what i'm thinking about sometimes i can sit and stone there for an hour without knowing what i'm doing.
think i need to find myself somehow :/ i feel kind of detached from people and all of that stuff that used to really important to me. everyday's like go-through-the-motions.
wake up flag raising go to school lunch waste away the afternoon go for tuition at night come home mug for tests sleep.
and think i've changed from when i was like. begining of sec two. to begining of sec three. to middle of sec three. changed alot. maybe too much, yeah. anyhow, i don't like myself anymore. not that much anyway. that might explain why some things are the way they are.
because today at p&p i said life was better i guess. maybe that's why i can't concentrate on qt much. then i wondered if life was better after i said it. and now i don't really think so. because i can't find myself and it's hard.
and i get so lonely in this crowd
i wanna scream but make no sound
yeah i'm lost but maybe i'll be found
i've had pretty fun times too though. (: like hmm.
jubilate!
superfun (: haha pretty impressive performances there. though we only arrived at the second interval. because we took reallyreally long to actually get to NUS, everyone we asked for directions cheated us and so we hiked up and down the place for really long. heh those with heels ah. i admire them for running uphill in high high heels alot (:
took pictures and went to TCC to have supper afterwards (: though i was dying of stomach flu it was really quite fun. phina and sancia slept over and we talked alot (: haha and watched forrest gump for awhile but decided not to finish watching it, we'll finish it this friday! (: woohoo
np ystd was alright, not too bad, though i was an appalling timer. i'll never ever ever ever ever ever volunteer to be timer ever again. it was like, charmaine are you sure you know the timing? every three seconds. hahah yeah then dinner. we bought shrek ear hairbands and wore them and people thought we were crazy when they walked past (: which was quite funny.
my mom made me try on every single long-sleeved shirt we own just now. i'm going on a long long holiday this june that's why. pretty exciting i guess (: europe. i shall have to buy chocolates or some sort of souveneir back for phina and sancia and all (: why don't i just give out pictures of me in europe right heh