was told to blog more. guess i should also. though i was under the impression no-one bothered to read this anymore. yaye this shall be a long post because i feel like it (:

things on the home front are so irritating and horrible at the moment. think i'm just being an idiot and making things difficult for the dad and sister. i see them getting quite pensieve at times. wonder if it's my fault,
but she's wrong she's wrong she's wrong

and i think i'm too much of a pushover. i really am, and you know what, that's going to change. i'm not going to spend the rest of my life being pushed around by people. think i'm really too random but yeah. i hate being taken for granted as well.
and since i'm fifteen and about a week and a half old i should remind myself not to be silly or airheaded anymore (: hahah.
actually it's not funny leh i have to grow up and stop making stupid comments and things like that. stop getting stuck in my perfect little world. where everyone loves everyone else and nobody's mean to anyone. yeah

nothing much else really. lessons quite a drag but think i get through each day pretty alright (: mostly just stoning and drawing rubbish on the backs of worksheets (: today tsw was having serious pms or smth, that stupid lady. apparently the people who didn't clean the blackboard are pathetic with a capitol P. i didn't clean the blackboard but i'm not pathetic >:(

on the bright side. chinses o's weren't that hard, thank God (: had quite alot of fun too. that sushi place was damned good hahah i want to go again. though it was kind of silly to sit there and study chinese the whole afternoon, but then we took alot of plates without even realising yup :D hahah so fun. that sworkshop thing after school was good too. i guess. communications speaker was quite amusing, but the image consultancy lady was egostical and weird

i hate going for tuition. knowing that everybody's leaving that damned place and wishing i could do the same. but i can't, or my physics grade will just die, oh what the hell/
why can't things just stay the same. or rather why is everybody always able to let go. all but me
guess i'm not showing any signs of growing up yet, hurh. i shall miss tiff/serene/therest, alot alot

i'm going to eat ben&jerry's, this is getting kind of morbid (: hahah.

i went to buy donuts todayyyyy :D took twenty minutes or smth. went back for cca but it was time to go already hahah. food comm did good though, i tried the food! (: and then i played beach rally on josephina's phone during evaluation and I GOT SILVER (: hahahaha she must be damned proud of me ecause i've never gotten silver before (:

hope things'll be good tmr. tmr evening will def be fun :D haven't done a thing for tuition. i'm staying up to midnight to send the mentor a 00:00 birthday thing, how nice am i (: