Sunday, August 31, 2008 @ 9:48 AM
today i talked about outreach with megan. it's really hard and i haven't brought anyone who's stayed yet. i don't even have that much courage to stand up to the extended family when they talk about church&me, like that. i guess i still have alot to learn :/
today my mom showed me this christmas card i gave my grandma when i was nine, &i was kind of sad because she doesn't even know my name now, but anyway it made me kind of happy because haha idk i thought it was kind of cute
okay i'm so lousy no pictures but it's 1am and i rly don't feel like making an Effort to do anything. making an Effort, you'd think things would actually go alright, but ha ha you know what it doesnt work that way after all
so you try, and try, and try, and then what?
anyway, i'm going to try harder and hope my brain doesnt fail me anymore
how many more weeks left, i will not, let, myself, screw, this, up.